On the 11th May I turned 9 years sober! For this chronic alcoholic it is nothing short of a miracle. 9 years ago I was a physical, emotional, and mental wreck. I was living on the human scrapheap. I lived to drink and drug. My every waking thought was about the next drink, the next drug, and what am I going to do to ensure the supply. Everything I loved was gone. I could find nothing worthwhile in anything.
Finally, the booze let me down. It just didn't work anymore. I could drink and drug and feel no different. I knew I was dying.
I will cut a long story short because it is obvious I did not die. Not only did I live but my life slowly got better.
You see, I went to A.A. (and N.A.)
There is hope.
It was difficult at first as I not only had to adjust to living without a chemical prop, but I had to get used to being dependent on other people, had to become dependable, and had to make some painful changes in my life.
Take heart if you are struggling with the booze or dope. The changes are worth it. To not have that weight around my neck and that black cloud over my head 24/7 has made the world of difference in my life.
Today life is worthwhile. The loneliness and fear that haunted me all my life is gone. I am no longer the shell of a man I was.
I am happy to share my story more fully with anyone should they care to contact me.
