After years of denying that alcohol is a depressant, I finally decided last night that it is. Because after the levels of serotonin in my body dropped, I felt worse than before I started drinking.
Come to think of it, drinking is just a simple way of altering your body chemistry without much effort. Compare it to an addiction or a relationship based on attachment (another form of addiction). When the thing you are addicted to is taken away, you go into a state of withdrawl.
Why keep drinking when you are already drunk? So you can avoid post-drinking depression. Why keep eating when you are already full? Why keep seeing someone who you don't love? Why keep doing anything you don't need to?
Last night when I was driving home and the alcohol wore off, I felt very uneasy. The music and the dates sort of helped. But when I took those away too, I had nothing. It was just me in my car, alone...
I have some sort of presupposition that for a person in great spiritual and emotional health, isolation is not so difficult. They are comfortable with themselves and enjoy their company just as much as (and perhaps even more than) that of other people. An emotionally healthy person has no addictions and does not need anything outside of themself to control their well-being. This is the kind of health I'd love to have.
So to avoid alcoholic withdrawl, I'm going to make it a small goal of mind to not drink. I'm not sure how well this will work since I have many unacheived goals. But perhaps I'll be more inclined to acheive this one since I have made it public...
And although I appreciate comments, I'd rather not get any criticism on this one. I understand that other people have different experiences and thoughts concerning the above. This is just my personal view :)
