I've been a smoker for almost 10 years. Last year I went to Europe. There I smoked European cigarettes. After three weeks of smoking I completely lost the desire to smoke, except for social. In Europe I smoked Pall Mole. Then when I returned to America I decided to buy Pall Mall again. After the first package I ended up smoking like a chimney. I couldn't stop. Instead of smoking few cigarettes a day I ended up smoking at least a package a day. I couldn't stop. Every time I would be left without cigarettes, I felt out of control sometimes crazy with lots of anxiety. So I ended up buying cigarettes even in the middle of the night, that's how desperate I was. My lungs since I began smoking deteriorated, and it destroyed not only the respiratory system, but it weakened my heart and damaged my nervous system.
While smoking, I lived a life in a wire all wrapped around me like being hooked up to an electric machine that generates signals with radio waves. These waves carried electrical signals that when in the absence of the chemical I would go crazy in the head. I felt like being stocked by an invisible force. In America everything is electrical, and so are the cigarettes. I wonder why they don't add mercury as well. For a while I tried to rationalize if there are any benefits from smoking. I tried to understand if the Lead from cigarettes can act like a lead apron when you have an x-ray. Lead is an element very toxic to the body which the government considers as a public hazard. But only when you are exposed to Lead paint.
So to our government indirect exposures are to be considered significant but not the daily consumption of the American cigarettes. They are safer and better for our health, because the consequences show up in twenty years. They don't care because we have businesses for profit. The Americans don't start smoking because they area addicted, but because they go mad. They are mad at their doctors, their neighbors, their coworkers, their wives and kids, at the traffic, the people they do business with, and often at their politicians. Thus creating a world of madness around us it becomes the opportunity to do business with us forcing us to go into a gas station to buy cigarettes because we want to have a behavior in good standing and not act like lunatics. So our society says we need to smoke so we can combat stress; we need to smoke so we won't act violently; we need to smoke so we won't fell depressed; we need to smoke so we won't feel anxious; we need to smoke so we combat mental illness.
With other words we all need to smoke so we can have jobs, pay mortgages, and put food on the table. When you go to see a doctor you live the office being criticized for your weaknesses -you should know better then that. Well doctor you should know better that cigarettes cause all sort of cancers and other chronic lung diseases. They can even give you a heart attack. So why are you all putting all these cigarettes on the market? Because we don't use it in moderation, like alcohol? Well I tried to kill the habit but there are too many synthetic drugs in American cigarettes, they end up controlling my world. You know there is a constant bottle filed between me and the world when I smoke. But when I don't, the world turns mad. Maybe we should add smoking to the problems with global warming, too much CO2 gas emission that we use daily as a favor to our government, the tobacco companies, and of course to the health care and the drug companies.
Cause when you get ill with smoke related illnesses is not the tobacco company who's goanna pay your medical bills, and neither the government, but you. The government only sues the tobacco companies to make some money so they can expand and pay for the DSHS clients. So who is the hypocrite in our society if not the government? So they raised the prices and the taxes on cigarettes not to make you quite smoking but to get more money for research to discover new drugs and for medical advances to treat smoking related illnesses! I may say this is not a government to represent the interests of the public because they know cigarettes cause cancers and lung diseases, and take the food away from our table. They kill not only the budget but also the appetite. This may work for the poor as they lack money for better nutrition.
Its nice to hear that you are writing about it....
Keep it up!!!!