Deirdre
Sept. 26, 2007
Yoga and Aerobics Instructor
Baltimore, MD
I will be zoning out, I will be right where I am supposed to be, suspended in motion, feeling painless, feeling placeless, feeling soulful and inside myself and I will just lose it. Because of the goddamn birthday. I’m young and still pretty now and in ten months, I will be teaching wicca. I will cross over (so John Edwards.)
All right, will this help?
- Books I like? I have no idea why. Everyman by Philip Roth. The Object of My Affection, though the movie sucked so bad.
- Yogurt, frozen, everything calcium. I don’t do meat anymore.
- I like fur coats, I like Prada, I love Jimmy Choo shoes.
- Most yoga instructors don’t go to retreats in 5 inch heels.
- I live a double life. I am deeply and irrevocably in love with a married man. I have been involved with him for 7 years
- I supported him and he still didn’t get his dissertation finished.
- I gave him $30000 a year.
- My kids took out loans for college.
- I hate that part of me. Then we do this kinky kinky stuff in bed and I feel like a prisoner of my own body. I love the Grand Canyon, the Cayman Islands and northern Italy. I have the non-married boyfriend who wants to marry me. My kids read between the lines I cannot believe the politics of this country. What is Saddam Hussein? What is Dr. Evil? What are we going to do about it? I miss my husband sometimes. And we’ve been divorced for 11 years. That totally freaks me out. Age should have no effect on me. But it does. I don’t want my face to be ugly. I am so lonely. I want to adopt a baby. From Russia or China. Yeah, China, definitely.
- I want to go to college to become a therapist but I don’t have the money. I’ll never go. I’m pathetic.
