Earlier today I was really craving a sandwich. Why exactly? I'm not quite sure. I haven't had a sandwich since last April ('06). I don't like bread, meat, cheese, mayonnaise, or anything sandwich-related for that matter - however I reallyed wanted a sandwich. I even got to the point where McDonalds sounded ok (gag me!)
Another thing to note - I couldn't drink my vegetable juice today. I haven't had any trouble drinking veggie juice since the first day when I downed it half-heartedly. The bitter taste has grown on me. Except today I was really disgusted by it. I was also semi-disgusted by lunch (some salad my mom made).
I feel like I've reverted to the way I used to feel about food. My whole childhood I loved junk food and hated vegetables. And although I've gotten over the physical craving for unhealthy food, it seems like the desire for it is deeply rooted in my brain. I realize that if I were to have a scoop of cookies and cream it would taste too sweet, creamy, milky, and rather nasty. I used to love this stuff, but even when I ate it often it would mess up my stomach. I can't imagine what would happen if I had it now! Nonetheless, I have the idea stuck in my head that I still like ice cream.
Even worse, I seem to think that I don't like vegetables, all though I enjoy the taste.
My mom suggested that maybe we enjoy things that remind us of good times. Since I associate cakes and ice cream with birthdays, which I associate with happiness, I still "like" these foods. (Although this example doesn't apply to me) it is quite possible to really like popcorn just because it reminds you of good movies and sleepovers.
Hopefully tomorrow I'll wake up feeling normal - drinking my vegetable juice and not craving a sandwich. However I'm pretty sure it'll take more than a good night's sleep to get over the psychological connection I've made with food since I was a kid.
